Stress, My Enemy

In truth, I'm a huge introvert. I usually don't speak to other people unless asked a question.
I must be the biggest nerd on the planet too. I have spent most of the day researching how to be interesting on a blog or on videos because I completely have no idea.

Here's the sad part. I haven't learned much at all. Am I the only one who stresses all the time about what to write or how to present things online. This is the number one reason I don't post half the things I ought to show.

Work is the biggest part of my life, but I don't dare share what I actually do there or how I truly feel about it because then I might not have a job. : ) (graphic ad design) this is the work I speak of

I really want to show my artwork off to you as well, but being more into licensing items at the moment, until contracts are signed and items are on the shelves I can't show off my kick butt art until deals are final. I do have some contracts and I look forward to sharing items when they are released! Then I can have SOMETHING to post about.

Most days I work 8+ more hours at the graphic job, I then get home try to eat something fast, do 30 minutes of walking up and down the hallway, and then get to work on drawings and paintings to grow my licensing portfolio.
 *sigh* on top of that we are finally packing everything to move to Kansas. I have searched for a job for 2 years now, nothing in the area. When the house sells sometime this summer, I will have to commute to work one way around 120 miles because I can't quit where I work now until something is found there.

This stresses me out enormously. So I have been in panic mode trying to figure out how to make a work at home business. Stamps? Selling paintings? Starting my own ad graphic business? Please Lord the lottery. I think I have a better shot at YouTube fame than the lottery.

I think I have a new patch of gray hair from all the stress. People at work are starting to comment on the gray LOL.

This is my life at the moment. Thanks for giving me a place to rant.